The more I grow older, the more I realize that the conventions are not cutting it for me. I believe I have met a lot of people who at some point in their life felt the same as I did. However, the difference between myself and most of them is that I never outgrew that mentality. For as long as I could recall, I knew that I wanted to travel, and with this website I’m able to do so. I’m getting many opportunities to do something I love. Something I can say I put my whole heart into. I never gave into the mindset that a 9-5 gig was what the goals should be with a nice escrow attached to it. I vehemently fight that notion. Granted, I’m still not completely independent, however that’s a work in progress. I’m actively taking the steps I need to in order to make this website one of my main sources of income. I want, no wait…a wise person this weekend told me to start talking in desires…I desire more. I actively work towards this goal every single day.
Now, let’s move away from a conventional workspace ideology. Let’s talk relationships. I have good parents. Parents that did and still do the best they know how to, However, having said that, I cannot say that I have ever met a relationship that I truly looked up to as the relationship that I aspired to mirror when I grew up. Now that I have semi-grown, I can honestly say that I am still in that position. There is no perfect relationship that I have ran into yet. And you know what? I do not believe that I ever truly will. Somewhere between learning how to fake my way to adulthood, all the many teachers/mentors/adults that came and went in my life, forgot to tell me that no one really has it completely together when it comes to relationships. I am learning more than ever that I do not want a typical relationship. I think that whoever makes it for the long haul needs to know that being with me means that I will not be around all the time. I need space. Lots of it. I love going out of town every weekend if I can help it, and when it comes to my work, it may mean weeks. I will need them to understand that I would hold them up on a pedestal and have so much love for them and the time we had together would be incomparable to anything else they could imagine. When I’m present, I’m present. But, that I’m addicted to my dreams. I’m addicted to making things happen. I cannot sit and accept the average. Including what we can have in our relationship. I make time to hear you and be present when you need me. I’m on the go, but for the important times, I’m always going to make time. Coinciding with this reality, above all else, before anything else, before love, I ask for trust and communication.
In this world where I actively have to fight for my dreams every single day, where everyone expects you to give in to the mundane, there are the dreamers who do. I am so blessed to have so many of these people who keep me lifted and encourage me to never stop aspiring to the greatness that I can unleash within myself and those around me. If you have managed to find your way on this website by mistake, by some workings of the universe, by recommendation, or whatever the case may be, the fact is that you are here. This post was less about a rant on the turbulence of my mind, and more about challenging ourselves each and every single day to question our reality and fight for our dreams. Sometimes it’s those who are the closest to us that make it difficult to move towards our happiness. Not because they want us to stay stagnant, but rather that our success means that our relationships with them will shift in a way that seems too different. Too ostracizing. We need to actively encourage those in our circle to understand the power we hold to be great. Success does not mean that we drift apart. If your heart is in a place of love and understanding, you will help them see how great you can grow together.
Lastly, at the end of the day, somebody told me that winter is a time to shed. Shed what held us back this past year. Sometimes growth means that we DO grow apart. Your happiness may seem to falter at the thought, but think of it like this. If you have learned everything you can from someone and there is nothing more they have left to teach, cherish that relationship. Understand what it meant in the time you had it. Take the lessons that you learned there and move forward to your next destination. Let the winter take what holds you back, so that spring can bloom something anew.
In closing, keep your strength. Challenge yourself each and every day to do different and be different. Never give up on your personal legends. And love. Love without inhibitions. Love like your heart has never been broken.