I had a moment of reflection and the following words came out that felt the need to be written and shared. I leave my heart in my words without fear of repercussion, because I speak from a place of love and no one can take that from me. So here goes:
You ever love somebody so much that when you look at them the world changes hues. You begin to see the God in them. The life you’ve lead dulls in comparison to what you witness now before you. I worry that I found the love of my life too young. I’m so afraid that my lifetime is not enough for us to spend together, so I hope we find each other in eternity. I’m afraid that I spend too much time away from you trying to make a name for myself in a world where they would rather block out my light rather than let it shine through. On days like this, I can’t imagine a day without you rather than a lifetime or eternity thereafter.
I’m afraid we are too different to make it work, but when we come together, it’s powerful in a way that words cannot do justice. I read a quote the other day that stuck with me. And it really resonated with me, because you shone front and center in my mind when I read it. It went something like, “words are a pretext. It is the inner bond that draws one person to another, not words.” I laughed when I read that, because you always say that I’m slick with my words. I know you understand that the words I throw out are futile when it comes to what we share. I pray to God, thanking the universe for your presence in my life. I believe with every ounce of my being that you and I walk hand in hand under God’s light. That our love is blessed by the universe itself. You tell me that we are not soulmates. That this is bigger than that. And when I look at you and I see God’s light shine through, I believe it. I think they say a bond stronger than that of a soulmate is that of twin flames. It was only appropriate that you would find this flame to match yours. As the name implies there is only one twin flame that we are matched with in this lifetime and whatever else follows after. You test me every day, challenge me to be better every day, love me in spite of the things I have put you through, your loyalty knows no bounds.
God gave you a flame to help keep you warm for not only this lifetime, but in whatever awaits us in the world beyond. With this much fire and light, we can’t ever get lost except in each other. We strong. Remember when it felt like our flames had dimmed and we would tell each other, “God’s rain water flows through the same gutter that we walk today, stay brave, keep your lip stiff, and keep your fist clenched. At times you gotta kick your way through this bitch…” Let’s keep that same energy…