Maktub

It is written…I went on a journey to try and get back to my roots. I had booked a trip with no return flight home. I needed to go so far from here. I needed to breathe and every time I thought of home, it was visions of different places, waking up to a new sunrise in a new city. I realized I was so lost. I was suffocating in all the expectations of the people I surrounded myself with; the fake energy. The disingenuous people. I needed to get back to authenticity. You see, this last year has been a very….transformative one for myself. There have been things that have truly hurt and left me sobbing and weak in lonely king beds:

1. I lost touch with loved ones, because I was too busy working
2. I lost my authenticity in search of more views; higher numbers
3. I fell in love with the idea of someone, rather than who they are
4. I was asked to sleep with someone, because they could help put me on…OBVIOUSLY I said no.
5. I lost a relationship of years, because it wasn’t our time. We needed to grow individually.

And then, there were things that helped my flame grow even stronger:

1. I realized I had lost touch with those who I needed to have by my side on this life journey, so I did the only thing that made sense. I put in work to rebuild bridges, only this time it is with stronger material that is built to last.
2. I came back to my roots, my words, my heart, my soul…Soul NEVER for sale.
3. I learned to appreciate a wonderful human being for what they are rather than what I wanted them to be.
4. I looked temptation in the eye and told it to fuck off…LITERALLY. In that moment, all I could think was, “you will never look your mother in the eyes again if you go through with this…” And that voice won out. I have never been happier of the person I’m becoming each and every day.
5. I realized that I didn’t lose any relationship, I understood that we needed to grow individually. I gained experience and understood that love alone is never enough to sustain a relationship. I realized that to truly love someone is to let them go and let them grow into who they are meant to become…and if it’s real, you’ll find your way back again.

Yes, this year has been transformative indeed. Now, it’s time to come home, because I have never been a runner. When something throws me off my path, I come back stronger; ready to tackle it. I needed a breather, I needed to recollect and come back with a solid game plan. There isn’t anyone or any amount of money in the world that can take me away from my principles, my heart, my words, my soul.

I want to end this with a message to anyone out there who has ever been tested to give up their own authenticity at the hands of social media, corporations, insert other evils you are fighting against, etc. Never give in to what your heart believes is your calling. Never settle. Always keep listening to your heart and fight for it, because if you give up on your heart, what else is left? Always remember, “maktub”.

– NewFlames

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Oscar

It takes a wise person to understand when change needs to happen. And I respect it. Thank you for sharing!

Eve
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Eve

Well said!

Jake
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Jake

Sharing your site!

Kylie
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Kylie

Fire bro!

China
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China

Bro youโ€™re so talented with your words. Keep it up

Itzel
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Itzel

I love this. Itโ€™s good to recognize our own growth. Love love LOVE it!

Erin
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Erin

You have a strong character. Your words are meant for the people. I see you Ms. NewFlames. Thank you!

Wren
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Wren

I donโ€™t even know you, but I just wanted to say that I love you. Always stay true.

Cody
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Cody

Love you friend, so glad you’re getting back to your roots <3

Timmy
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Timmy

Always a refreshing breath of fresh air

Ryan
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Ryan

Love your thoughts

Liz
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Liz

Beautiful

Jill
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Jill

Ima need you to not go so long without posting

Pete
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Pete

I appreciate you

Manny
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Manny

Youโ€™re on to big things. Do it your way. You got this.

Lani
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Lani

Continue the positive growth!

Mike
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Mike

too many ppl out here doin it for the fakeshit

Queen
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Queen

As you get bigger – which you will – it will get more and more difficult to fight temptations, hold on to your heart. Powerful stuff. Keep it up.

Harry
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Harry

๐Ÿ˜ฎ love this

Jenni
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Jenni

๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ”ฅ

Leo
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Leo

Way too many fakes out here

Kyle
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Kyle

Need more posts like these…straight from the heart

Hope
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Hope

Youโ€™re posts are always so beautiful ๐Ÿ˜

Isaac
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Isaac

Missed your words bro

Ash
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Ash

This is great! Preach

Tyra
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Tyra

Oh man..the feels!!

Josie
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Josie

Love is never easy

Say It!
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Say It!

๐Ÿ˜ข Preach

Hank
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Hank

Amazing words
Powerful

Jorge
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Jorge

Bro this is very insightful

Mena
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Mena

Thank you!

Genesis
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Genesis

Girl Iโ€™d love to sit down and have some tea with you and just talk. It would be a great convo.

Tia
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Tia

Sounds like one hell of a journey

Kira
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Kira

๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ”ฅ

Tony
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Tony

You always have me thinking ๐Ÿค”

Dre
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Dre

Maktub, where is that from?

Kira
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Kira

The alchemist

Gia
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Gia

Well said
Maktub!

Wes
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Wes

Sounds like an enlightening year. Good stuff

Leslie
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Leslie

Yessss! Preach it!

Janie
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Janie

Missed your words!

Jay
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Jay

This website is an inspiration