Breathless

I don’t do this often, but lately I’ve been thinking of you more often than I care to admit. I’m surrounded by a lot of almost-somebody’s and it’s taking a toll on my heart. Everyone either wants something or I’m not enough to have them give me their time. These people, their eyes wander a little to far off away from my eyes when we have conversations, revealing their true nature.

I don’t come around often, I know, that’s on me. I miss your presence in my life. I’m glad I was able to make the drive to come see you last night. The moon was overhead and your resting place was quiet. I could hear from time to time, the passing by car, but other than that the air was still with a chill that went through me. But, I didn’t care. I needed something real to come hold me down. And you’re presence was sorely missed. I needed to be reminded why I do what I do.

I remember the day you left me. I didn’t think that I could have survived it. The moment you stopped breathing, I found it difficult for my heart to keep pumping blood to keep the oxygen pumping through me. It’s crazy to think that it’s been years and I still find myself from time to time trying to catch my breath. I never thought it would get easier. And you know, it doesn’t, not when it comes to you. It’s like reopening a wound that never really heals. We weren’t meant to go through life without each other, but the thing is, that choice was made for us. So, now, you are forever sitting in my mind on a pedestal that no one can ever move, because how do you compare to a memory?

I want to end this on a positive note, because that would make sense, right? But, I’m afraid, I don’t have anything this time around to finesse that. I need this. Today, I’ll be sad. Tomorrow’s another day and I’ll pick myself up again and keep it pushing.

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1 year ago

Awesome post! Keep up the great work! πŸ™‚

Emily
1 year ago

πŸ’”

Kia
1 year ago

Making me feel stuff 😩

Maria
1 year ago

β€οΈπŸ’•

Shining bright
1 year ago

Beautiful

Cassie
1 year ago

My heart felt this at its core

Dina
1 year ago

Love this πŸ’”

I’m sad
1 year ago

πŸ’”

Cari
1 year ago

This is amazing beautiful
Made me feel shut
I loved it

Justin
1 year ago

😒

Lani
1 year ago

Much love ❀️

😭😒
1 year ago

I cried a little reading this

Tay
1 year ago

Lovely absolutely lovely
I felt you flames

Tanya
1 year ago

This is amazing

George
1 year ago

πŸ’”

Izzy
1 year ago

Love this πŸ’•

Israel
1 year ago

That hit home πŸ˜”

Ash
1 year ago

😒

Tracy
1 year ago

πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”

Ryan
1 year ago

Appreciate you sharing this

Justin
1 year ago

I feel your pain

Jessie
1 year ago

Sheesh I wasn’t ready 😞

Jake
1 year ago

I lost my mom and I felt this..thank you bro

πŸ”₯
1 year ago
Reply to  Jake

❀️❀️❀️

Gia
1 year ago

Oh man
This is raw

Faith
1 year ago

πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”

Trey
1 year ago

πŸ₯€

Bri
1 year ago

The feels

Destiny
1 year ago

😭 😭😭

πŸ’”
1 year ago

😭

China
1 year ago

Bro…