Breathless

I don’t do this often, but lately I’ve been thinking of you more often than I care to admit. I’m surrounded by a lot of almost-somebody’s and it’s taking a toll on my heart. Everyone either wants something or I’m not enough to have them give me their time. These people, their eyes wander a little to far off away from my eyes when we have conversations, revealing their true nature.

I don’t come around often, I know, that’s on me. I miss your presence in my life. I’m glad I was able to make the drive to come see you last night. The moon was overhead and your resting place was quiet. I could hear from time to time, the passing by car, but other than that the air was still with a chill that went through me. But, I didn’t care. I needed something real to come hold me down. And you’re presence was sorely missed. I needed to be reminded why I do what I do.

I remember the day you left me. I didn’t think that I could have survived it. The moment you stopped breathing, I found it difficult for my heart to keep pumping blood to keep the oxygen pumping through me. It’s crazy to think that it’s been years and I still find myself from time to time trying to catch my breath. I never thought it would get easier. And you know, it doesn’t, not when it comes to you. It’s like reopening a wound that never really heals. We weren’t meant to go through life without each other, but the thing is, that choice was made for us. So, now, you are forever sitting in my mind on a pedestal that no one can ever move, because how do you compare to a memory?

I want to end this on a positive note, because that would make sense, right? But, I’m afraid, I don’t have anything this time around to finesse that. I need this. Today, I’ll be sad. Tomorrow’s another day and I’ll pick myself up again and keep it pushing.

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6 months ago

Awesome post! Keep up the great work! πŸ™‚

Emily
6 months ago

πŸ’”

Kia
6 months ago

Making me feel stuff 😩

Maria
6 months ago

β€οΈπŸ’•

Shining bright
6 months ago

Beautiful

Cassie
6 months ago

My heart felt this at its core

Dina
6 months ago

Love this πŸ’”

I’m sad
6 months ago

πŸ’”

Cari
6 months ago

This is amazing beautiful
Made me feel shut
I loved it

Justin
6 months ago

😒

Lani
6 months ago

Much love ❀️

😭😒
6 months ago

I cried a little reading this

Tay
6 months ago

Lovely absolutely lovely
I felt you flames

Tanya
6 months ago

This is amazing

George
6 months ago

πŸ’”

Izzy
6 months ago

Love this πŸ’•

Israel
6 months ago

That hit home πŸ˜”

Ash
6 months ago

😒

Tracy
6 months ago

πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”

Ryan
6 months ago

Appreciate you sharing this

Justin
6 months ago

I feel your pain

Jessie
6 months ago

Sheesh I wasn’t ready 😞

Jake
6 months ago

I lost my mom and I felt this..thank you bro

πŸ”₯
6 months ago
Reply to  Jake

❀️❀️❀️

Gia
6 months ago

Oh man
This is raw

Faith
6 months ago

πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’”

Trey
6 months ago

πŸ₯€

Bri
6 months ago

The feels

Destiny
6 months ago

😭 😭😭

πŸ’”
6 months ago

😭

China
6 months ago

Bro…