April 26, 2022
It’s been a while since I’ve felt the need to let the world know that these words are coming from my heart and not penned under someone else’s name. You may not know me but know this journey of speaking my words into existence has been a story years in the writing. It’s half past 2 in the morning, the beginning of summer is in the Arizona air outside. Some of my best creations have come out of these late-night hours. My heart is heavy. There’s been a sadness that’s lingered since my lovely, Quinn or as we called her, Q, passed away that heartless summer. I think about her when I find myself reminiscing about a far-off past, that seems not too far off at all during these late-night hours. These moments when I find myself at my most vulnerable, Q takes me down a nostalgia-filled memory lane. I get reminded when I fall victim to these insomnia-induced episodes how lovely it is to have had such goodness in your life. To have shared a moment of my life with such a light that it makes the sadness a bit less heavy on my heart.
I wrote a total of 8 letters the last time I was doing this, which you can find on my website. This time, I want to be a lot more consistent with sharing these little pieces of my truths with the world. I don’t expect these words to change the world. I do however want to share a piece of myself that I hope resonates on some human level with a stranger long enough for us to feel each other. Even if it is for a brief passing moment.
I hope this meant something to you. I want you to know that your power is more great and bigger than you may know. The moments that make us feel small are temporary. I hope your heart is light. And if it is not, then I hope that you take a minute to just breathe and know that you aren’t alone. I, a stranger on the other end of these words have felt what it is like to be so small, that my existence felt meaningless. Our pains may not be measurable, nor comparable. However, we are two people sharing an experience with these words. And that transcends all pain. I’m here with you if that means anything.
New Flame