Perception is like the lens of a camera…adjustable and can be utilized to view the whole truth.
I met a rose today. She sat down next to me at a park bench. The wind was blowing, and clouds were rolling in, the afternoon bringing a moody dusk. Two strangers. I looked over at her and saw one tear slowly slip quietly down her face. I don’t know what possessed me, but I held out my hand. She looked at it at first, then slowly took my hand. Quietly one tear turned to two, then 4, then 8 until I lost count.
Continue reading “Rose – We all Grieve”
You ever have someone look at you and really see you? Like they can see past all the bullshit you put in place to safeguard yourself from the hurts of the world. Their gaze makes you feel naked and stripped of all barriers. Who you are is vulnerable. But, that doesn’t stop them from entering into the darkest parts of your heart. Parts that you no longer believed were even habitable anymore. Continue reading “Unfiltered”
You ever meet someone who is so bound to the mistakes of the past that everything about them screams bitterness and resentment? Those people will never let you live down your mistakes. They’re the ones as soon as something goes wrong, they’ll throw punches to the gut of all the ways you were the worst human to have ever existed in the past. They’ll make sure when you are thriving, they get in a hit to make you suffer, to bring you right down to where they are suffering as well.
Continue reading “Detox”
I woke up yesterday with a need to go see my mom. She is a lovely woman, bound by her own ideals and expectations of nurturing anyone who comes in contact with her. It’s really quite lovely to witness, however yesterday, when I went to see her, I had this sudden realization hit me. I’ve always seen my mom as a silent fighter. Someone who stands steadfast in her beliefs and a lover of family above all else. Yesterday was different. I had just finished changing the lightbulb under the microwave and staying on brand with not finishing a single household task in one sitting, had left the lid open. I had left the room and came back to my mom bent over, putting the cover on by herself. Continue reading “New Tune”
The sandwich was the last straw for me. I’d been holding so much in. Listen, when I tell you there had been one thing after another trying my mental, it would be an understatement. I was taking hit after hit, everything from my personal life to my professional life. The character development that I went through the past six months has been wild, to say the least.
So, to get back to the sandwich…there was this day where LITERALLY it felt like nothing could go right. I picked up a sandwich on my way home, in reflection of life. I get home, my lady is in the kitchen, and I go to the bedroom to change into something comfortable. My phone starts ringing. I look down and instantly my heart drops. Never has this man called to give me any type of good news. It doesn’t matter what, it doesn’t matter who. That call left me trying to gasp for air. I was DISTRESSED. I take a second, get my shit together and walk back out. I told my girl what happened, she’s already seen me struggling so much, told me it’s going to be ok, and says let’s eat and that I’m strong and everything is coming together. All this is leading to something amazing. Took all of me not to roll my eyes. We sit down to eat…and instantly I realize, they fucked up my order.
Continue reading “Thank god for that stupid ass sandwich. It saved my life.”
I think you’re lovely. I’m sorry they don’t see your worth like I do. One day, all the things that aren’t adding up right now, will sum up nicely to flourish the bounty you deserve. The world can try to dim your light, but I promise, when you want something bad enough, you put in the work, there isn’t a power in this world that can keep you from it.
Continue reading “To the woman who told me she ran out of good luck”